yamiam91

Stone cold. I feel my faint and fickle heart beating I can taste only the bitter air, stale and thick Yellow light penetrating through, Tattered and worn blinds Dancing to the tune of silence, Of a whisper, Alone at last, captivated by my distorted mind One would wonder at times like these Am I unique, or simply another unit Processed through the machine

Retrace the fractured lines Mirroring a spiderweb Of lies you've told and Lives you've led, Ill tuck you in Now lie in your bed You created it Sealed your fate With hot wax, and a stamp To this, I can relate What a pity What a shame Such a careless waste of time and space If we were created It must leave a foul taste In our holy fathers mouth That can never dissipate

Flay my flesh, peel me like string cheese. Tear away my layers, separate it all, down to the particles propelling life so simply. Unique to me alone is my silent soliloquy vulgar ramblings of an egomaniac, self-obsession king. Its just me myself and Irie Counteracting the forces, postponing maturity. All good halts, no change, evolution, or growth. Hindering and withholding, this skunky saboteur A trap fallen into, attempting to relive youth once more. The poor misguided soul, introverted to the core. Can self reflect, try not to neglect the weaknesses that you abhor

This depression has taken its toll Im all used up. Nothing but the ruined fragments of a life once whole The point of no return Is just around the bend As if it were lurking in the shadow While the corrupted trudge onwards While the weak go fourth I will stear away from this doomed course Set sails to a land, so far away That even my dreams will never stray A state of mind with clarity and purpose Summoning a barrier between the helplessness The hopeless Turn a new page, write in your own chapter Its within your control if your life is a tradgedy or filled with laughter, of inebrieated nights and lustful lovers giggles,

You don't know drunk, until your clinging to the ground So you don't get spun off the world But that's the only time I cant miss you So this is where I remain Split in two Time divided between self loathing and fantasy, In silence, In my cage, In my prison

Guilt is all I feel Plastic smiles and hollow laughs That's how I live, Just to get by You know me like no other I don't want another I  don't deserve a second glance, Much less a second chance I miss you And that's the price I pay For every awful word I uttered that day

The clock is not your friend When the one person You want to spend your life with Wont give you the time of day

May you be blessed Never waver, or falter From the path you chose May you wear your heart Not on your sleeve But in your eyes A moments glance, Is a eternity of romance Filling my world, with a longing For your smile, your touch With the highest of hopes And the lowest expectations I wish that you Never suffer, never bleed Never shed tears, never need Believe It can be so, My love with you Sparks magic in my soul Dancing with yours, Forever As a whole

I am infected By this world, so demented As I stand holding you With your tears running down my bare chest They are cold, the tears Wind, chilling them on my skin My heart is cold, the years Help me collect many regrets My hope frays My sanity, unhinged This is where, It always begins

It started with a kiss A tease, Neither of us knowing Where this would lead A glimpse to the future A blossoming bud Would it flower? Or wilt into the mud